It's War Thunder and it's better if you don't play it.

I'm a porn addict.

You are a strong guy imo, because it takes strength to wear your problems and your weakness on your chin.
We are all soft and goey inside and bleed the same.

I have turned all my problems into a self fulfilling prophecy, all I can do is fail. I've set myself up for failure.

Why am I not taking any steps then?

I am 31 years old now, My prime is about to end, no family of my own, stuck in a deadbeat job, I am nothing. I have nothing.

He said "I was a smoker too, and I managed to quit, you simply dont want it, you have have done something already if you really wanted change. You should stop lying to yourself You shouldnt take anti depressants, these pills are not good for you. I managed t quit depression by changing my life, never needed pills and im happy "

I am on leave for this week and all I did was indulge in my addiction.
It's turning me into something I am not.
As if I am being reprogrammed.
So yeah, not feeling to good.
I am bitter and cyncal and I am not even old yet.
A friend said, if I really wanted to change, I would have changed already.
And I think he is right, I am happy in my misery and have no desire to change.
But I don't want to keep on like this either.

It is what it is, gotta live this misery until I die.

I'd like some Radler, please.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3TqB1HedGsE
Heard it on the radio, been in my mind ever since.

What game are you talking about?

Look at the last seconds, it looks like it swallowed the sausage whole and that it tore itself apart. Looks like there is blood coming out in the rear.