Thanks for the hints. I'm eating the usual things, just trying to get smaller portions.
I'm also getting some lessons from a trainer to use the equipment correctly and have a balanced workout schedule. All that remains is to follow through I guess.

Started gym last week for the first time in my life, in what I hope will be a new beginning instead of the usual stagnation.There will be no more pills, no more bad food, no more destroyers of my body. From now on will be total organization. Every muscle must be tight.
Memes aside, I really hope it will give me confidence I need to tackle on new challenges. I'm trying to interact more with the people around me instead of thinking of them as ***s by default. So far it's been a mixed success, but I guess it's to be expected. Can't change years old habits immediately I guess.
I also want to meet new people but I don't really know where to start. I'm not at the level where I can chat up strangers. I guess I will try some kind of sport.

A blue hawaii please.

Thanks for the encouragement. Needed to jot that down to clear my thoughts.

Hey there.

All of a sudden, this week I looked back on my life and realized all the chances I could've taken to change it in the last 15 years and instead shot down without a thought.
How could I have been this retarded?

I'm trying to rationalize why in the everloving *** I didn't realize this sooner.
Maybe because of the way I was raised, I was taught to see the flaws in other people before strengths. But I also remember being kind of social tard since childhood, so maybe it's also that. Or perhaps it's because I was so caught up in easy gratifications that I convinced myself it would be fine like this forever. What a ***ing tool.

I guess this is kind of a early mid-life crisis. All my peers have gone way ahead in life. My only consolation, if a meager one, is that I have a high income and stable job which I studied my ass off to get. That's my main achievement. As much as I want to tell myself that I shouldn't compare myself to them it just feels like a cop-out.

Imma have to salvage what I can from now on. Wish me luck, and a pina colada please.

Ah yes, the old 'men-are-just-walking-vibrators' shtick, femcels' piece de resistance

looney toon ass mf

What the *** are yall going on about? This made you horny? The voice and the character were so aggressively detached from each other it gave me an antiboner. Were the *** is my child-like-but-ye-olde-sounding lolibaba voice? That sounded just like a e-thot you could find in any god-forgotten twitch channel with 6 viewers. *** this shit

I'm sure it's got nothing to do with the fact that about all dangerous jobs have a male ratio of something like 90%

The world if black culture was inaccessible for 6 months